Planning Onwards

While sitting in front of cashier, come across the planning... yeahh planning for future ahead. What will I do in coming next 4 or 5 years from now.. what am I doing, will I still stay with future hubby ** that time confirm la da kawen kan.. hiks...** or we'll far apart cause I have great passion to further Master, Msc. abroad after finish my degree ** (2 years more), will I have kids at that time or struggling to complete the PhD ahead**(dream!!!) ... hahhhhh all the planning have to put in one straight path so that they'll keep in the path and not going missing apart!

For now, I have to complete my degree first.Alasss... to complete it, very teach me how tough and hard study is. Yes, its really hard, to gain knowledge and able to apply whatever we learn directly or indirectly backwards of years or semesters we had before. Instead of having distractions like passion, responsibility and commitment towards studies and college activities are just enough to make me plan the things-to-do very wisely, or else I'm gonna lie myself on a bed and crying for all the mistakes I've done before! Seriously there are too many, but I still learn and learn ... manage everything without forget my priority to study 1st and love 2nd!



My goodnesss... the love comes 1st I realize lately since I am so excited to think about marriage at this early age. At first, both my parents urge me to finish study 1st, but SURPRISINGLY they pass me a "green-light" to marry the one who I love most, InsyaAllah... The rest, they ask me to think and arrange properly. I wish I won't make a MISTAKE.. perhaps neglect my priority and dream which I want to further my study until I have a scroll of Master (at least) and doctorate,PhD before my age of 30! Yeahh I just can plan what should I do is to struggle on it and let to Allah S.W.T the rest, InsyaAllah

So.. now its time for me to think about my current study and marriage soon! hehe...
May Allah eases our plan ahead I pray.

If and only if I get married before the I finish my degree, I'll work hard and focus more to my spouse and study! That's my promise to myself... Yes I will and have to... Please pray for my bless and success in future undertaking guys!

salam :)

A comeback

Assalamualaikum annd Hi all!
It's quite a long time I didn't update this blog. I miss blogging I swear! But, there's a lot things happened lately. By the way the fourth semester has just ended.... not "just"... pathetically it's almost2 months already... See, how long I didn't WRITE at least once a month. Maybe and maybe .... I was too busy finishing all my works,assignments yet struggling for my final exams. Talking about the final, yeah.. the result has also came out. Yeah! Terribly I am soo down and a bit frustrated with the results, the expect beyond unexpectedness! I don't what to say..seems my mom has always nagging me about my studies. She's so perfectionist I swear, all what she wants is her children must bring her a good result, flying colours one! yeahh... Me and my brother the one who study in universities, so as the eldest, I must show my younger sister and brother the good attitude and effort to success! Back to my result, fortunately my current CGP was still above 3.0 pointer! Alhamdulillah.. Praise to Allah ... Still, I frust with the assumption, the high hope which I really2 aim to get an A for the animal structure and function subject! If and only if, I'll urge my lecturers to make to one person teaching skills only, not separated for 2 persons for 1 semester thoroughly! Here, this will eventually killing student like me! haha... What a bad confession I guess here... But still I am grateful which I think this would be a REMINDER to me... focus more on my studies not others! For genetic and physical and inorganic chemistry subjects, I know I'll get those grades just worth of my efforts and have to struggle for an A solid for next Organic Chemistry subjects in next semester! Overall, I am grateful with what I got and have to work hard and smart next time. Yeah, this time seriously I HAVE TO..!!!! InsyaAllah ...

A wordless Thursday

Nothing much to say. It's just a great thankful because everything is finally done. I'm done with P.A stuff... still got time to have short chatting with him which like his master students were not aroudn in lab. Second, grate that Dr. has given up the attendance percentage up to 80%. Alhamdulliah... (Baik juga Dr. nih..), third is am done with all the letters and all the secretary's stuffs . It's like I've settled down all the distractions I messed before. Fortunately, all the subjects are now can be sited for upcoming final exams. I also glad that could help couples of friends indeed! Everything happens for a reason I guess. Now, it's time to focus on my study, especially chemistry and genetic. They both still need to put more on struggle or else i'll regret soon. I wish that everyone is blessed in their preparation along this study week. Aminnn...

"If we put everything we want in right plan,

insyaAllah the whole universe will help us to strive for what we want"

Loud Out Laugh

I just get back from faculty. Hoyeeeehhh!!! It's like to shout out with high volume and tell people around that I'm done with my fourth semester! What a relief my dear................. fewhhh... all anxious feelings before have vanished off seems that I just finished my anatomy lab test... HOORAaayyy!!!!!! (suke sangat!) Haha... remembering of what I'd answered for the earlier paper this evening is just like putting gummy bears inside my end throat laa... Why I say so because I feel that all the answers I gave juggling around. Yeaaa lah, there's a lot of confusion ouh. OMG the skeletal system are the most tragic part. How come I can forgot which structures of fibula.. tibia and ulna.. so on... damnn.. The pointed pin also are not shwing the exact point to answer. Geram nye! The fresh specimens also I smell it niceeeeeeeely just like in wet market. Ewwww.. Grosssssss!!! Still, I love this subject, animal structure and anatomy. In short, overall I managed to answer it.. maybe about 70% with confidence... haha... Right after the last bell rang, I picked all stuffs a go back to dormitory...and now..... what else to say have to work on for just one week to study till the final exams come. Can't wait to have longggg semester break!

study week

Mid-terms and finals are the bane and avoiding of most students I'm sure. One final exam would be bad enough, but at the end of the semester we often have to take two or three exams in a single day sometimes! Even worse if we have one paper perday for a long time lagging period. It's like waiting for snowing in summer my dear! OMG... what a long time to face through the hard time instead of doing the best for final! It’s enough to make even the most studious among us pine for the life of a beach bum haaaaaaaaaa.......

If you find yourself in this unenviable position, here are some tips and tricks to help you make the best of a bad situation.

The quick list…

1. Get to WORK NOW
2. MAP out your path to success (of course you have to plan earlier! what else to wait sayang? Takkan nak tunggu final semester, then everything you'll put in compact and narrow sticky notes.. argghh... please don't do this honey!)
   
3. CUT out the non-essentials and distractions. -__- (sacrifice for the sake of your performance!)
   
4. IDENTIFY and CONCENTRATE on the big payoff items
5. Don’t mistake work for progress
6. MAXIMIZE your learning ability by working with your brain (as I’ve posted on throughout this blog)
7. AVOID the big mistakes and reluctant students make in these situations
8. The big deal is now NO PROCRASTINATION!!! (loud out shout! )

Read on for the full scoop on how to apply each of these!

Get to work now! Stop daydreaming about being a beach bum or as Pak Kadok! Daydreaming when you should have been hitting the books is what got you into this mess in the first place. As one pundit observed, “If you find yourself in a hole, the first thing to do is stop digging.” You can have dream to achieve success but what the important most now is you should struggle for the best. Give all out where you can meet Mr. S.A.T.I.S.F.A.C.T.I.O.N afterall that you have give out the maximum efforts that you tend to.

Map out your path to success. That is, come up with a plan to maximize the time you have left; then STICK to the plan. Sketch out a daily plan from now until exam days. It's like doing rough timetable. No need such details on your schedule because to me I believe that we'll not follow as it planned before right? Hahahah cuz I'm the one like that.. aaaahhhaa... Don’t waste time searching the internet for the perfect online scheduling solution or fritter away precious minutes trolling the aisles of the office supply store weighing the merits of the RM100++, leather-bound planner versus the RM40++, plastic version. Those are procrastination tactics designed to delay the inevitable. Pull out a couple of pieces of notebook paper right now and map out an hour-by-hour schedule for each day from now until the end of the ordeal. Block off all those necessaries such as pray time,sleep time and classes.Purposely, do it according to the prior one... Not to put everything or all subjects to be covered in a day! Boleh jadi gila tau sayang....

Cut out all the non-essentials and distractions and send appropriate email or text/SMS apologies. For instance, email your buddies a quick “Sorry. Can’t make the monster truck rally this week. Finals are eating my lunch. Pray for me!” Turn off the cell phone (or other technology distractors) for most of the day" or "As-salam, ___ dengan rendah hatinye memohon maaf atas segala kesalahan,kesulitan or kekasaran selama kite berkawan and belajar selama ni. Mintak halal ilmu, makan minum and so on laaa.. blaa.. bla... " . The most important part is ask for a great BLESS from your teachers/lecturers and parents! Ouhh mama ___ mintak maaf if ___ ade buat salah n terkasar bahasa.Mintak halal segalanya eyh... Doakan yang TERBAIK untuk __ eyh... (baru la jadi anak mithali my dear). Plan a few times each day to turn it back on and check messages. Respond to the most urgent and delay the others. You may have to go somewhere new to study. For instance, I knew that studying in my dorm room or at the library was not very efficient because friends would come find me there and gossiping or chatting those craps and lappy, FACEBOOK-ing constantly called me to come procrastinate. I might go to a McD area on the other side of my grandma's house to study.

I guess everyone have vast anticipations on how making an efficient study and maximizing the time left to study and struggling for the best. All what I can say now, I'll pray for everyone's best. Do THE BEST and great !!! Make your parents proud of you boys and girls out there. You'll have blast enjoy for upcoming semester break after all the final papers have finished. Once again Bella wishing you GOOD LUCK for the upcoming final exams and make use all good things in this limited study week! muahhh! love you guys!... <3

hookah

Have you heard a term of "Hookah" before?
As you can see the picture, hookah also known as "SHISYA". It's quite popular among Malaysians currently especially in youth league. Maybe it's a trend nowadays. We can see many shisya are served eeverywhere! Well, I'd love to share what I've learnt from tonight presentation, which was actually last night hahahaa... Last group has presented us this quite informative topic. Personally, I found this is good to share because this entry is related to my previous entry which was "smoking gene". Why I say so?

First of all let me clarify you that the mitos which said that the smoke (the white fog like in picture) from the hookah; shisya has lower level of hazarding/threaten our life and health compared to smoking (cigar) is TOTALLY WRONG!

Many people see this true because the lesser the smoke, the lower the risk. This is not true my dear. Why I say so? This is because of that the air surround us are sometime moist, so called humidity. As a Biology student, I found this is right. Like the tremendous pathetic crisis happens in Japan now, why the radiation is still not spread straight away to our country? This moist breeze,humidity actually act as barrier. Thus, preventing it from spread. That is why we see the smoke vanish and fades off.

Guys, for your information... Hookah is more dangerous compared to smoking!!!
It is 400 times increased risk for someone to have respiratory problems rather than smoking! OMG!!!!!!!!! Imagine how bad it is.... T_T

The contents are:

• Hydrated/Preserve Tobacco (Tembakau Peram)
• Charcoal (Arang)

The charcoal itself boosts up the rate of getting the problems. This lead to cancer! How this happen? Its like this... when the charcoals are burned, there will be water as product instead of produce the smoke. The water in that container is the one which cannot filter the toxin produced! So, the toxin level will be higher... Several effects that have been discovered are heart disease, barren and Pneumonia...

I not campaigning here. Just to share the info... and it's up to you to generalize it. Feel free to share your opinion or anticipation. :)

Smoking Gene

Smoking is one of the factor that threaten our health. Unfortunately, people recently just take it for granted. It is Ok if you want to smoke to death, but please think about others. Those pregnant mummies and kids out there. They need fresh air my dear smokers! Indeed! Same goes to me! Seriously I dont know how it feels when smokers inhale the"fresh air" like absorbing the sweet taste loly! urrgghh~ Frankly I'm mad, BUT sure we can't simply blame them. Ok, back to my topic highlighted here "Smoking Gene". Wow, I never thought that the smoking habit happens by genetic inheritance. This type of heredity had been exposed to us (my coursemates) by Dr. Faridah in Genetic class last monday. OMG! Meaning here, parents who smoke they impurposely transfer this kind of gene to their kids in future. Isn't it bad guys? Of course we don't want our generations face difficulties and have diseases that closely related to lung. To list out the diseases here, its quite a lot guys. You guys can go check the medical website or any articles of health. I'm sure they help you a lot in order to gain our knowledge.

To inform you, adulthood and adolescence have different sets of gene. Its now implicated in the risk for addiction. It's not the drug addiction dear. Its all about smoking. Yeahh we can see obviously that children at their age 12 to 18 years old have highest rate of smoking over the adult, compared to their elder. Why this happens? Is it because of the influence by their friends? The environment factors? The answer is YES! but there's still factor which the genes! We know that gene carries the genetic materials from the maternal and paternal but do we know that smoking habit also caused by the gene? To me its new thing ti discover as a student. Scientists nowadays do a lot of researches, so no wonder we can find out anything at tip of our fingers. Let me share you the "smoking genes"...

• Variant in a set of Dopamine-related gene.

This gene is associated with the initial state, where a person's risk to start smoke. This gene has stronger impact on smoking initiation in adolescence compared to adults! This causes 1.3-fold increased risk of starting smoking in their teenagers are scientifically proven.

• Set of gene coded for subunits of Nicotinic Cholinergic receptors.

The term Nicotine itself we know it refers to the cigarrate, one of the content. This gene is quite hazard because it expresses the brain target... To what it target for? Haaa... it's targeting toward Nicotine!!! Meaning here the brain is set to take up the nicotine. Its like AN ADDICTION! That is why we can see that people smoke around us cant merely stop smoking. They have been addicted! Variation in this gene influence the likehood of smokers continuing the habit into adult than of adolescence.

Finally, what I can conclude here to those who are smokers DO STOP SMOKING!!!
We want the good quality of products in future. The products here I mean is our kids or grandchild in future. Then, the good branding will lead to success and healthy life!

p/s: You can visit this URL "http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/220898.php for further reference.

all memories jumble up again

ni view dari aras 3...

bilik yang agak besar...
menjadi tempat persinggahan kawan2 Bella!
( gossip u ols! )

January 18th...

Malam ni x sangka dapat reunion indirectly ngan ex-classmates 1 H03 (2nd year) Pahang Matriculation batch 2008/2009....

Woww~
bile tengok angka 0809 ... years have been passed by for almost 3 years!
wahh... lame tu!!!
Sekejap je mase berlalu... sape sangka kan... masing2 dah besar... umur semakin meningkat... huk2... kalah air pasang surut u ols....
Luckily, Cik adik Adzna ( yang shumey! ) signed up group utk kelas ni.. hahaha hasilnye..... ape lagi... dapat la kiteorang BERJEJAK KASIH!!!
WALAU JAUH MANE SEKALI PUN... KAN KU TETAP MENJEJAKI U OLSss~!!!

wahahah... motip???
x sampai 1/2 jam da beriban2 komen kat wall post bella... hahah rindu adik2 katenye...
bile ingat2 balik ape yang kiteorang faced together... banya jugak...
di sinilah bermulanya erti BERDIKARI... cz time matrik ni la Bella 1st time duk berjauhan nan mama n ayah... family.... hehehe.... konon nak duk jauh ... hambek ! Pahang nunn... jauh dari my homeland! ( used in Turkey, kalo kat sini=hometown )

Jom, click2 gambar kenangan! :)
Bermula disini....

Classmate: 1 H03
(Life science course, Kmph)

siyes rindu zaman muda2!!!
Year 2009

ni... mase raye kat kolej
curly hair...ouuh~

d'gadis~


time ni Bella agak "techik"
(skang sudah bum3)

lab time!
Biology, which is my favourite subject till now on!

haa.. sian tgk bebek (babies)
lab rats yang dah dipengsankan... huk2

dissect time!!! ( ggrr.... kejam sikit!)

tengok... (kalo gambar ni animated la)
actually, time ni heart tikus ni still pumping...

moment yang paling menyayat hati...
kene bedah jugak tempurung kepala tikus ni...
nipis je kepala die... aduuhhh~~
kene kuarkan pulak otak tikus ni...
toing.. toing...
@__@

bukan senang mau jadi doktor ... itulah yang kite belajar... hati x boleh mudah simpati... kena cekal... hahaha... memang best life as a student ni... kalau diberi peluang... memang Bella nak belajar sampai bile2...

Alhamdulillah... akhirnya UPM (terchinte!!!) tempat Bella menimba ilmu skang ni...
Hahaha... minat yang x terhingga membawa Bell kepada Bacelor Sains (Kepujian) - Major Biologi! hehehe... InsyaAllah Bella akan grad pada 2013 !!!

I never bore to study!
I never let the pain or regret come over when study!
My studies would definitely LAST LONGER!!!

P/s: Kawan2 doakan kejayaan Bella di dunia dan di akhirat yea! In return, same goes to you!
muahh! muaaahH!! sayang u olls!!!